Friday, July 30, 2010

Week 1, Take Two . . .

Here we go again . . . Why? Because after surgery & vacation, I gained all my weight back. Yes, sucks, I know. It truly is so much harder to lose than to gain. But let's face it: I was in serious denial if I thought that Blue Bell wasn't gonna catch up to me!

So I started the new eating plan this past Monday. As always, I must refrain from providing all the juicy details, but I will divulge that it entails a lot of celery and spinach, so much so that I've had to visit Costco 3 times in the past week for re-stocking!

Day 1 and 2 were rough. Sugar detox. Need I say more? I was depressed. Not just sad, but mildly clinically depressed. Not to mention irate. It didn't help that the hubby was out of town for work, so I was doing the single-mom thing. (Shout-out to single moms, btw.) I had all of my mommy jobs, in addition to all the daddy jobs, aka garbage, dog, kids to bed, and generally making sure the house is safely turned down each night. I was running myself ragged, and on minimal caloric intake. On the plus side, I was so busy I never had to resort to my "distractions list" to help me wait it out till the next meal. And I never really felt starved. Pretty difficult when you're consuming 3 cups of spinach, 2 cups of celery, 2 cups of peppers . . . I just REALLY wanted sugar.

But I was so disgusted with myself for gaining all the weight back that I knew I wouldn't cheat. I wasn't going to give up on the first or second day. I had been here before, and I knew that if I could survive the first few days, I'd be good to go for months. Still, knowing I can do it doesn't make the doing any easier.

On day 2 as I partook of meal 2 between workouts 1 and 2, I remembered that model I met during the Zumba photo shoot, the one who said she had just won in a bikini competition. She had complained about all the oatmeal. I remembered that conversation, and I suddenly felt angry at the world. (Yes, I know this sounds all very dramatic. I'm bringing you into the world of sugar rehab, people, and it ain't pretty or rational). But here was my train of thought: Oatmeal?? That girl won and got to eat lots of oatmeal?? Has she ever had broccoli, green beans, or celery for breakfast? expletive. expletive. I would kill to have oatmeal on my meal plan right now. Does my trainer know about this oatneal eating plan? And if so, why is she depriving me?? Alas, that model probably hadn't just eaten her way through 4 gallons of Blue Bell; she was also young and had never birthed kids. And she didn't look like she had ever had any body fat to begin with. Ugh. Genes. That girl has good genes. No excuse. I did this to myself. Suck it up for now. Lose this fat. And maybe one day, I'll get to arise each morning, knowing that the greatest warmth processed for human consumption awaits me in a bowl of plain old-fashioned oats.

I got over the bitterness fast when I stood on the scale on day 2 and 3 and 4, and each day I had lost about half a pound.  It's nice to see results right away, though I know I'm not supposed to stand on the scale until Sunday morning, but I needed the reassurance.

one meal calls for 3 cups of spinach! in order to get it down, I chopped up 2 c. for a chopped salad & added 1 c. to the egg whites for a frittata. voila!
Not only has the eating plan gotten stricter, but my workouts have been amped up. Trainer Jill met with me on Monday, for what I thought was just a quick "let me show you these exercises you can do on your own later". But no. She put me through the workout. Hard core! I think I may have cried for my mother. This, after I had already taught an hour Pump Mix, an hour Advanced Yoga and had an hour of Pilates Fusion coming up that evening! Yes, count it. 4 hours of muscle. I mean, I've conquered 4 hours of cardio (marathon) but never have I done 4 hours of strength training in one day. I almost thought I'd roll out of bed the next day and look like Trainer Jill. I mean, something magical had to happen after that much strength training. But no. Just a bit sore all over. Luckily Tuesday was cardio day . . .

Wednesday, July 21, 2010

Figure vs. Bikini vs. Bodybuilder

So everyone asks me what the heck I'm doing and what the different categories are . . . I had considered Figure, but what I really want is a Bikini body, so that's the direction I'm headed for my first competition! Yes, I have a date, October 9th, Cottonwood High School. Now that I have a real date in mind, I am more mentally ready to commit to the program. No more fluffing around like I have been . . . at least once Monday hits! Trainer Jill is working on my new eating plan and workout plan & I'm excited to have an end goal and a realistic timeline. It was hard to stay on top of it when it seemed so faraway and vague; besides, I had plenty of time. Why rush and hit my peak too soon, right? (This is my rationalizing the Blue Bell Binge of 2010.)

So for my interested friends . . . here are some pics from last year's winners of the competition I will be doing, and you can see what I'm up for . . . it's seeming less and less crazy everyday! Then you can compare to where I am now, & you can see what a long road I have ahead!

http://www.npcutah.com/PHOTOS/WINNERS-WEB/index.htm

Saturday, July 17, 2010

Post-Vacation

Oh my naivety! I re-read my last post & am embarassed that I must post this confession . . . vacation was harder than I thought it would be.

We arrived around 1 am into Miami and headed to a hotel right by the airport. Despite being drop-dead tired, we set our alarm to get up so we wouldn't miss the highly-praised free breakfast buffet. I ignored the enticing wafts of bacon and pancakes and headed to the made-to-order omelette line, where I ordered an egg white veggie omelette. Yum! Then I hit up the oatmeal and stirred in a little cinnamon and vanilla. I did have a bite of bacon because it was the overcooked super-crispy kind, just the way I like it. (The hubby likes it fattier and limp-- gross!) So far, so good.

We had some time to kill before we could check into the condo in Weston, so we drove to downtown Miami and went to the Bayside shops. My one rule for vacation was (besides the McDonald's at the airport) no eating at chain restaurants, or at least no restaurant we can eat at in Utah. So for lunch we opted for Bubba Gump. We didn't want to carry any leftovers, so Ryan and I split a shrimp avocado salsa and chips (yes, carbs!) and shrimp and veggie skewers. Not perfect, but pretty good choices. Except for the drink. Can I just say, Florida in July is exactly what I anticipated-- sticky hot & humid as a bikram studio! Those specialty lemonades sure looked like the solution!

After that, we headed to Weston but made a stop at a local Super Walmart we drove by accidentally. This ended up to be a big mistake. Apparently, everyone in Florida shops at Walmart on Friday. And they don't just get a few items. They FILL their carts. They fill multiple carts. And yes, the checkouts in Florida are just as slow and understaffed as the ones in Utah. But in Utah, no one FILLS their cart at Walmart. That's what Costco is for. I thought I could just run in, grab a few essential groceries, and be out in 20-30 minutes. The kids were asleep in the car, so Ryan waited. As I stood in the checkout for 10, 15, 20 minutes, I could feel Ryan's impatience. I wondered if I should just leave my cart & go, but I had come too far to turn back. Plus, the couple behind me in line were very nice & I enjoyed learning their entire life stories while they berated Walmart lines. This would never happen in Utah, this instant story-sharing amongst strangers. In the 20 minutes we were in line, I learned about the husband's horrific customer service experience in McDonald's just a few days before (another reason to avoid the symbol of American eating), that he had a good friend in Lindon, UT, that his wife survived a brain aneurism at age 17 and had a metal plate in her head, that she left her church after her first husband cheated on her multiple times and her ecclesiastical leaders advised her to forgive and forget. Yeah, the guy was a talker, but I appreciated the distraction. When I finally got rung up, I raced to the car, waved good-bye to my new friends, & completely ignored the fact that I had to pee after drinking all that yummy, sugary lemonade. The hubby was too annoyed to let me go back in and pee, so the ride to Weston was torture.

Long story short, I had accomplished my next move in my healthy vacation: healthy groceries. I stocked our fridge with broccoli, blueberries, sliced turkey, chicken, salmon, salad greens, spinach, egg whites. In the pantry was my oatmeal and peanut butter and bread for the rest of the fam. Needless to say, the hubby went to the store later to get sodas and other various drinks & chips.

Also with the best of intentions, I had packed several workout outfits. I checked out the fitness center when we arrived. It left much to be desired, but I figured I could also go running or work on Zumba choreography.

So those were my intentions . . . Now for reality.

I worked out twice. To my credit, I did go running & survived about 3 miles. In July. In Florida. Mid-morning, because I stayed on Utah time. It was my first run post-surgery, and it felt pretty good, if you like running in a sauna. I also attempted to use the elliptical machine in the fitness center, but it was archaic and didn't work me out at all. I also tried the "weight" machine, one of those all-in-one pulley systems. I had to get pretty creative with it to work hamstrings, and it was impossible to do most upper body on it. I did a good 10 minutes of abs with both workouts I managed to squeeze in.

The rest of vacation was busy, filled with excursions, family time, swimming at the pool, shopping, eating. It was exhausting, and every morning when I weighed my options: set the alarm and get up early to workout, or sleep in because hallelujah the kids were still sleeping . . . well, I did what any mother of 3 on vacation in a king-size bed would do. I got up . . .  to pee. Once or twice . . . and went back to bed! It was amazing to NOT have to be anywhere by 8 am.

Granted, our activities weren't lazy by any means. Even shopping was laborious, as we explored the labyrinthian Sawgrass Mills Mall, one of the country's largest outlet malls. It is endless. We only covered half of it in 3 hours (the hubby stayed behind to watch the World Cup finals and do laundry-- any excuse to NOT go shopping). Our feet and legs ached by the end. The kids were whiny, tired, and bored. You think I exaggerate, but I saw grown women, who were clearly not as in shape as I am, sitting atop those rental strollers, their sugar daddies pushing them along from store to store. No lie.

We also went snorkeling in Key Largo. With our 3 kids. Have you tried snorkeling with a frightened 10-year old clinging to your arm?  It's a workout. (btw, that's my sis in the pic, not my 10-year-old!) We spent a day at Hollywood beach and swam out as far as we could, to the buoy that marks the no-swim zone. (The hubby was freaked out about the possibility of sharks, which made the swim that much more exciting.) There was no down-time, no lying in a chaise reading a book. Because it was too damn hot. You had to be in the water or in the air conditioning. So at the beach, we spent all 4 hours in the water, swimming and doggy paddling and wading. The white hubby was fried at the end of the day, despite 2 applications of spf 50.

Besides our active excursions, we were staying on the 7th floor, at the very end of the hall. Anytime we had to "go back to the room" from the pool--for forgotten sunglasses, a snack, whatever-- it was a major time-consuming ordeal, even with the elevator. Once I tried to take the stairs because I knew it'd be faster, but I was locked out of the building from the stairwell, had to jog all the way down and go around and take the elevator, & more than once I was so distracted by the humidity that I got off on whatever floor the elevator first stopped on (they all looked exactly alike upon stepping out), realizing as soon as the doors shut that I was NOT on floor 7 & I'd have to wait all over again for the elevator to come back to me. Seriously. I would have preferred the stairs.

The heat and humidity was so stifling that any movement you made outdoors felt like a workout. Which I guess is why I justified my consumption of gallons of Blue Bell ice cream! And the fact that you CANNOT get Blue Bell ice cream in Utah. I had wanted to get a few different flavors in pint sizes, but all the local Publix had in great variety were the gallon sized. I knew I had to have the Banana Pudding. Ooh, and the Pistachio Almond. Ohhhh, Tropical Paradise, doesn't that sound yummy? Coconut ice cream with pineapple and macadamia nuts. And yes, yes, yes Groom's Cake to satisfy the chocolate craving! I figured we could share with all the relatives; it'd be gone in no time. However, they were all stored in MY freezer. Guess who ate most of the Banana Pudding, straight out of the carton?? In the moment, I didn't even care that I'm mildly lactose-intolerant and ice cream makes me bloated until I look 6 months pregnant. No, no. I lived in the moment, with no regard for 10 minutes in the future. That cold, gooey banana ice cream with whipped cream swirls and nilla wafer chunks was worth the stomach pains and gas baby I would inevitably incur, or so I thought in the moment. 

It was disgusting, in the bad way. Needless to say, I put on a couple pounds on vacation. This was NOT what I needed after my post-surgery hiatus. I am back to square one with my weight, though I attribute a couple pounds to boobage and a little to muscle. I have a lot of work to do. But I know I can do it. Because I've done it before. I hit the gym yesterday, the real one. Taught my cycle class (and was dying-- did I really acclimate to sea level that quickly because this altitude was killing me!) then tested myself on all my usual weight exercises. Sadly, it was obvious I had lost some strength. I had to drop weight on everything. Still can't do lats or pull-up machine post-surgery either.

But I'm staying positive. On the bright side, my body should really respond to my workouts & diet now. And I have no plans in the near future to visit any state that sells Blue Bell ice cream :)